Maybe I Have Changed


OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAOn Wednesday, around noon my time, I was on the phone with my mother, trying to deal with her and the fact that she is such a control junkie, she can’t relax, even when someone is there at the house to keep an eye on my father (who has Alzheimer’s).  While I’m arguing with her about that, I was half listening to Oprah’s 50th Anniversary speech.  My train of thought was not really about how she had struggled and is truly the embodiment of Martin Luther King, Jr.’s dream, but how darn good she looks.  The woman is the perfect example of how to grow into the menopausal years with grace and dignity, and not try to slut it out to be so pathetically thin that her hands look like claws.

Shallow and superficial or something else?

It wasn’t until I had made the observation about how good she looked, and then told my mother how incredible the dress Michelle Obama was wearing, did I realize that I have, indeed changed. No, it isn’t about racism.  One thing I do pride myself on is the fact that I am not racist.  I think the French are the scum of the earth, but that’s not racism, just the fact that I’m 80% Brit and have a visceral reaction to the French.  No, the way I’ve changed is the fact that I no longer look at ceremonies like this and think about fact that we’re being assaulted, not by race, but by a bunch of liberals.

Was it shallow and superficial to be liberated enough, from the far right that I can watch Michelle Obama and proudly say that she has become an iconic First Lady.  The woman will go down as one of the great First Ladies we’ve ever had.  I was terrible about her when she first came onto the scene.  One reason was because of the way she was being so deplorably dressed, being sandbagged. Then the real Michelle Obama began to assert herself.  She has become an icon.

Oprah is a powerhouse.  While I was being shallow and superficial, I began to think about why she was speaking.  If anyone embowered MLK Jr.’s speech, she has.  She’s the perfect example of what a person can and should do with their lives.  But – if I were still drinking the Rush Limbaugh/FOX News kool-aid, I would be picking everything she said, apart.  No – not because of race, but because of political orientation.

I don’t mind admitting that I always looked at things from the GOP side.  I’m not even a bit embarrassed about that.  What I am ashamed of is the fact that I fell for the assault on conservatives lie by Rush Limbaugh and then by FOX News.  I am ashamed that, via my business, I was once a local sponsor of Rush.  I will never be able to make up for what I did.

I allowed myself to be tainted by the way I looked at things.  I would always look for a Republican solution.  For years, those solutions were not bad at all.  Then something nasty happened.  Like a frog in a pot of boiling water, I never noticed the problem because I was slowly being boiled to death.  In that way, I’ve changed.  I never thought I would be tweeting a quote from Bill Clinton, “A great democracy does not make it harder to vote than to buy an assault weapon.”  Yes, I quoted something from Bill Clinton.  No, I didn’t slam him, I agreed with him.

There is something quite liberating in being able to cast aside the chains of political ideology that bind our minds and spirits.  For those who criticize, saying that I’ve become a liberal socialist, that’s a crock.  My only change is in the fact that I can allow myself to see the tremendous problems the far right is causing.  In a way it isn’t even the far right, but the pathetic little brainwashed minds who are no longer capable of thinking for themselves.

Yea, I do pride myself in thinking for myself and maintaining my individuality.  I don’t march, lock-step with anyone or any ideology.  Do you?

I can’t be bought.

This said, one thing that truly annoys me is the fact that I don’t think the far left appreciates Barack Obama and supports him the way they should.  Then again, the true moderate that I am, and don’t mind admitting I prefer being, recognizes the fact that Barack Obama is a true moderate. Maybe that’s why I’m so comfortable supporting him.

Do you know how liberating it is to be able to say, yes I voted for Barack Obama, and am proud of it?  Well, it is.  I don’t mind admitting that I listened to John Lewis and thought about the man, how he is a survivor.  Then, I thought about the abject racism of Laura Ingraham on her show the other day. Do these people think they are cute?

I realized that one of the real problems with the right is not that all of them are racist.  Heck, having lived as a NORMAL Republican for so many years, I can assure you that the average NORMAL Republican is not a racist. They’re good men and women.  But, their decency has been over-shadowed by a few truly rancid haters who have an agenda that is hurtful to this nation.

I changed when I realized that the party was now being controlled by the minions of Ayn Rand.  As a Christian, I find anyone who supports her vile agenda and still claims to be a Christian is either a total liar about one part of the agenda, or is an abject fool.  You cannot be a Christian and support today’s Republican agenda.  It is contrary to the teachings of Christ.

Funny thing about that, the more I began to deplore the nastiness that has become the GOP, the wider my eyes began to open.  You can’t be a Christian and hate.  You can’t be a Christian and support an agenda created by a woman who hated Christ.  You can’t be a Christian and claim that denying children access to food and medical care is for their own good.  It is contrary to the teachings of Christ.

Maybe that’s the bottom line.  I don’t follow Rush Limbaugh, FOX News, the GOP, the DNC, or even Barack Obama. I follow Christ.  I try to do what is right.  You can’t do what is right by turning a blind eye to what is going on in the world today.  Thanks to ALEC and Ayn Rand, the GOP, the far right, and the so-called “Christian” right doesn’t really bother with Christ.  In order to continue to spread their lies, they now deal with the brainwashed, turning the right into a cult.

No, maybe I haven’t changed.  The GOP has changed, and not for the better.

Now, you want my other shallow observation about the official ceremony for the 50th Anniversary?  Everyone in the official party was beautifully and appropriately clad.  They were very well dressed, the way people in this country should dress.  I’m sick and tired of people looking like trash.  They were respectful enough of the moment to dress for the event.


7 thoughts on “Maybe I Have Changed

  1. Your candor is so refreshing and I think we need more moderates on both sides of the aisle.

  2. I could relate to this article very easily because for a number of years I too was a Right wing whack-a-doodle. I started with Limbaugh, then Free Republic (my screen name was Nofriendofbills) and of course I was glued to Fox news. I was a Republican, I come from a long line of New Deal blue collar Democrats. Eventually I became a Libertarian. Btw, I’m Gay and even managed to be a raging homophobe for a time. I may regret that more than anything.
    It took a while to realize that I had become a stooge for some very nasty people, in fact I became a pretty nasty man myself. Today I would call myself a moderate and a Democrat. I don’t agree with everything the Dems say but then again I don’t have to. It’s no sin to think for yourself, in fact it’s a really gift. I’m more my own man now than I ever was as a right winger.
    May I say, you are spot on about Christ and Rand. In no way are their teachings compatible.
    Keep up the good work and God bless.

  3. My political trajectory has followed a similar pattern. I used to say I was an independent who usually voted Republican. Now I’m an independent who mostly votes Democratic. I’m an evangelical Christian who voted for and supports Obama. Imagine that.

  4. Thanks, Reidhead, for being a human being who happens to lean Republican. I’m a human being who happens to lean Democrat, but I would have voted for John McCain in 2000, and even in 2008 had it not been for his disastrous choice of a running mate. Maybe if enough reasonable human beings like you and I communicate and reach a consensus, we can actually solve the problems facing this country.

  5. Is the far right still hurling insults? They claim to detest the far left, but this is one of the tactics the Tea Party is using straight from the Alinsky Method. Interesting!

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