Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is error, the truth;
Where there is doubt, the faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
Grant that I may not so much seek
To be consoled, as to console;
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen.
I have a very bad day coming up today. It need not have been bad, but thanks to the mechanization of those who think they know more than I do, simply because they are male, I have been put in a horrible financial situation. The situation was not necessary. I had a major problem solved. But, this person who is a retired banker, and elderly thinks that he knows more than I do about a certain subject. Consequently, his refusal to sign a contract for his 20% of the project has cost me at least $45,000 which I needed to pay real estate taxes, and other bills. I have a bubble payment due in a few days. If I can’t make that payment, it is going to be a disaster. I’ve now been put in a position where I might lose my home, and it wasn’t necessary. Now, my mother and I must go begging to borrow money that we should not be required to borrow, from the person who created the problem for us.
My mother told me to read the Peace Prayer. She’s right. I need it, disparately. I am trying. I have forgiven this person, but I’m still very hurt and angry.
All I do know is there needs to be a better way to deal with financial crises when it is based on illness. But, that is the number one cause for people going bankrupt in this country. As a nation we should be ashamed of ourselves for doing this to people.